My dreams...

My beloved,

I have been dreaming of you. In my dreams we are together, we live together building a family.

We have children in a big house (big for my stile), they are one boy and one girl; a happy family in a happy world full of love. 

A world where love can be infinite, without limitations, love without limitations.  A world where I can feel your smile even if we are apart, because nothing left us really apart.

Those are really nice dreams that have come every night, every day. Dreams that I love and that show what I want.

Dreams that made me look for you every day. Looking for you in my bed just minutes before wake up and looking for you on people faces.

Had I met you?

I just know that I can feel your presence over there, in some one that is looking for me too…

We will find each other, eventually…

I love you,

Yours,

Never let me go...

My beloved,

My father just made me remember one of my favorites songs; Never let me go…

I danced that song some time ago… When I was deciding to move and I really didn’t wanted. When a lot of stuff where changing in my life and I wanted to be with you… When the most important was feeling you smell in the morning and in that feeling I was desiring that you NEVER LET ME GO…

I still want to be with you… Have a life with you… Get married, have children… and that you NEVER let me GO!

Let’s do it… Let’s try… Let’s book a life together and not apart… Let’s do the perfect life that can have…

One life where you never let me go apart…

I love you!

Lost...

My beloved,

I am getting lost in my job, in my travels in my life looking for you. I am getting lost on the road, on my way to find the life that I suppose to live. I am getting lost looking for you.

I gave love to everyone, to all people around me, giving love in different ways; but not able to give you my love. I am still looking for you, guess I haven’t found you, did I?

Too many faces, too many open doors. Too many doors that gets closet after a while.

Too many thoughts of love for you that gets lost into another face –another body.

Some of those faces are right, it is true… I am lost…

Lost on my way to found you… Losing my life just looking for you. Losing my ability to love everyone. Losing the hope of being with you.

And while I am thinking on what I need to do to find you, I watch the clock, the Tic-Toc that never ends, remembering me that my time is almost over and I haven’t found you; did I?

I just need to patient. The patient that comes with the hope that we will be together… No matter what…! Will we?

Help me my dear… give me light that you are here. I have missed you for so long…

Yours, 

PS: Father, it is true… I am not wasting my live… I give light to too many people and if the time pass and I cannot do what I suppose to do, thanks for being with me; I will try to give more light to the ones close to me…

Love you Daddy!!!! 

So Mechanical...

My beloved,

Your answer are very mechanical, the result of several years of experience in this world. “I like you”; “I love you” without really meaning from your side, without really feelings inside.

Or it is just one of the mask that you have, hidden your feelings because the scare of being in love; the scare of getting hurt.

Mechanical answers, mechanicals comments with a lot of feelings completed hidden to avoid get hurt. Mechanical answers that leave us apart… Mechanical answers that help us to understand each other, to be better.

We both can be so mechanical in our way to have love. I our way to avoid get hurt. But the end, we will lose too much with this attitude.

It is true, I love too much, I will give you everything that I have; being yours 100%, and this is not a mechanical comment. I give everything that I have as my way to be sure that I tried. 

 

 

So yes, stop being mechanical to open the possibility of have a new life… Together!

10%

My beloved,

We both work very well on statistics. Mathematics is an essential part of our lives and in that world of numbers you let me know the probability of being together… 10%

Really…? Just 10% of probability for being together…?  Or 10% of confidence about being together…?

You know very well that there is a big difference between the two numbers. 10% probabilities, 90% confidence… Yes! 90% confidence that we can have a wonderful life together, that we can live one life, having a child that gives us harmony and love.

Share our love and the hope of our souls, make us part of this big cycle and complete our destiny –together!

10% is more than what most people have… As you have my heart!

I love you!